This is by far my favorite time of the year.
Nature is putting on it's own fireworks display with all the vibrant reds and oranges and yellows in the trees!
I am starting to love my drive home out to Buckley because my last mile is down a road that has many different trees along each side and I love see them all fly past me in a blur of color as I pass them in my car.
The wind is picking up. That fierce wind that bites through clothes. Although it may not be ideally comfortable, it brings along an atmosphere and emotion with it. I crave it.
The next thing I am really looking forward to is a LOT more rain :)
More pictures to come as well!
"Autumn; the year's last, loveliest smile." - William Cullen Bryant
Monday, October 12, 2009
Thursday, October 8, 2009
An October Change
"Each choice we make causes a ripple effect in our lives. When things happen to us, it is the reaction we choose that can create the difference between the sorrows of our past and the joy in our future."
My life is heading in a new direction. I am making the move to a new place filled with new people, new ambitions, and new experiences. I have a strong desire to return to school and finish my AA. I plan to meet many new people and build lasting friendships. I hope to have trials and struggles that I have never encountered before that will challenge me and help me grow stronger as an individual. All in all, I am almost ready for a fresh start.
I have a new sense of hope and adventure about me that I have extremely missed. In my current living place, I feel trapped and unmotivated. Granted, a good portion of these feelings are internally changeable. However, I am in an atmosphere where I feel I can't grow or be myself. One of my favorites sayings is "If you don't like something, change it". And that is what I am doing.
There is a certain individual who I cannot express enough gratitude to for helping me and being amazingly supportive and considerate for my well being. He has been a solid rock of comfort and support in my life for over the past year now. His insight and caring attitude has been the backing to my recent ambitions to change my life and improve it. For that, I can't thank you enough, Adam.
I have experienced so much in these past two and a half months after my move back to Buckley and I honestly wouldn't go back and change anything, if I had the opportunity. The good and bad times are all important to me. It has really helped me realize what I do and do not want in my life. The quote I referenced at the beginning of this entry is very gripping to me. You and only you can choose how you react and respond to the good and bad things that life throws at you.
I have my aspirations and dreams set high and I intend to follow through with them in the near future.
My life is heading in a new direction. I am making the move to a new place filled with new people, new ambitions, and new experiences. I have a strong desire to return to school and finish my AA. I plan to meet many new people and build lasting friendships. I hope to have trials and struggles that I have never encountered before that will challenge me and help me grow stronger as an individual. All in all, I am almost ready for a fresh start.
I have a new sense of hope and adventure about me that I have extremely missed. In my current living place, I feel trapped and unmotivated. Granted, a good portion of these feelings are internally changeable. However, I am in an atmosphere where I feel I can't grow or be myself. One of my favorites sayings is "If you don't like something, change it". And that is what I am doing.
There is a certain individual who I cannot express enough gratitude to for helping me and being amazingly supportive and considerate for my well being. He has been a solid rock of comfort and support in my life for over the past year now. His insight and caring attitude has been the backing to my recent ambitions to change my life and improve it. For that, I can't thank you enough, Adam.
I have experienced so much in these past two and a half months after my move back to Buckley and I honestly wouldn't go back and change anything, if I had the opportunity. The good and bad times are all important to me. It has really helped me realize what I do and do not want in my life. The quote I referenced at the beginning of this entry is very gripping to me. You and only you can choose how you react and respond to the good and bad things that life throws at you.
I have my aspirations and dreams set high and I intend to follow through with them in the near future.
Sunday, August 9, 2009
Me and my many lives
I've decided that we, as humans, cannot just live once.
There are too many different experiences in life for anyone person to undergo in a single life time.
I, for example, will never know what it feels like to be an adopted child. One of my best friends, Bonnie, was a foster child. Thankfully she was adopted by one family at a really young and was able to grow with them and acknowledge them as her true family.
While sitting on the porch tonight, enjoying the cool night air, she was mentioning contacting her biological parents. It was at that moment that I got a little jealous of her.
My thoughts were "I will never understand what she is feeling or thinking when she talks about her "real" parents...".
This is just one of MANY different scenarios that I will never in my life.
So I have decided that when I die, I will be reborn as an entirely new person and into a whole new atmosphere. But I will some knowledge and experience from my current life and with it, I can become a better person in my next life.
Maybe it's silly. Maybe it's not.
There are too many different experiences in life for anyone person to undergo in a single life time.
I, for example, will never know what it feels like to be an adopted child. One of my best friends, Bonnie, was a foster child. Thankfully she was adopted by one family at a really young and was able to grow with them and acknowledge them as her true family.
While sitting on the porch tonight, enjoying the cool night air, she was mentioning contacting her biological parents. It was at that moment that I got a little jealous of her.
My thoughts were "I will never understand what she is feeling or thinking when she talks about her "real" parents...".
This is just one of MANY different scenarios that I will never in my life.
So I have decided that when I die, I will be reborn as an entirely new person and into a whole new atmosphere. But I will some knowledge and experience from my current life and with it, I can become a better person in my next life.
Maybe it's silly. Maybe it's not.
Saturday, May 30, 2009
More pictures!
Here are a just a few pictures I've snapped along my daily trekking.
Of course there are the cliche floral pictures and one I took of Sydney while she was smoking.
Enjoy :)
Of course there are the cliche floral pictures and one I took of Sydney while she was smoking.
Enjoy :)
Sunday, May 24, 2009
Updated Bucket List
Doing some thinking tonight and I thought I should update my bucket list :)
1. Find that special someone and start a family with them
2. Travel through Europe; At least France, Ireland, Germany and Russia.
3. Learn to fluently speak Russian.
4. Publish some form of prose
5. Pose for a nude drawing
6. Go to Japan and try authentic sushi
7. Go to New York and visit the art museums
8. Learn how to ball room dance
9. Snorkel amongst the corals reefs of Australia
10. See the Broadway production of Wicked
11. Plant and maintenance a vegetable and herb garden
12. Be in a major motion picture
13. Have a picture of mine be published
14. Obtain a degree in Psychology
15. Bar tend for a night
16. Direct movie trailers
17. Be in a tv commercial!
I will update more soon.
1. Find that special someone and start a family with them
2. Travel through Europe; At least France, Ireland, Germany and Russia.
3. Learn to fluently speak Russian.
4. Publish some form of prose
5. Pose for a nude drawing
6. Go to Japan and try authentic sushi
7. Go to New York and visit the art museums
8. Learn how to ball room dance
9. Snorkel amongst the corals reefs of Australia
10. See the Broadway production of Wicked
11. Plant and maintenance a vegetable and herb garden
12. Be in a major motion picture
13. Have a picture of mine be published
14. Obtain a degree in Psychology
15. Bar tend for a night
16. Direct movie trailers
17. Be in a tv commercial!
I will update more soon.
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
Photography
I was talking to Adam a couple weeks ago and he suggested a wonderful thing!
I've always wanted to have a camera with me all the time (aside from a cell phone) and take pictures of things that have caught my eye in the past.
He told me to take them with my cell phone anyways. So today, I did.
"Untitled"
I've always wanted to have a camera with me all the time (aside from a cell phone) and take pictures of things that have caught my eye in the past.
He told me to take them with my cell phone anyways. So today, I did.
"Untitled"
Monday, May 11, 2009
Intuition
Definition - instinctive knowing (without the use of rational processes).
Sometimes this isn't exactly the most factual way to address situations in life but it is the best.
It can hurt, confuse, enlighten and amplify all sorts of feelings, thoughts, people and ever the heart.
And yet, it seems to be one of the best ways to survive and grow from a problem.
To anyone that may have been hurt or confused by actions of mine that don't seem reasonable, I do apologize.
As corny as this sounds, I really am following my heart and looking through my second sight.
Sometimes this isn't exactly the most factual way to address situations in life but it is the best.
It can hurt, confuse, enlighten and amplify all sorts of feelings, thoughts, people and ever the heart.
And yet, it seems to be one of the best ways to survive and grow from a problem.
To anyone that may have been hurt or confused by actions of mine that don't seem reasonable, I do apologize.
As corny as this sounds, I really am following my heart and looking through my second sight.
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