My two cents on the matter...

Sydney and I just finished watching Dr 90210.

There were 2 segments in this episode. One was of 2 sisters getting breast implants and augmentations. The second was of a women who was a transsexual and had an operation to form her female genitalia to male genitalia.

The women, who is now a man, has 3 daughters. They did not take his change very well. They felt betrayed, disregarded, and hurt. This is to be expected. Sydney says that the guy, his name is Marco, was very selfish for doing what he did.

My thought process is almost the exact opposite.

Granted, it is not fair for his daughters to have to watch their mother turn into a man. It even more unfair that Marco had to wake up his whole life hating being in the body that he was in. Sydney doesn't understand anything about being trapped sexually.

She never had to come out to her parents and break their hearts. Or tell her loved ones that she doesn't want to be a girl anymore. She never had to wake up in the morning and put up a guard against your inner self breaking free.

That is how I felt before I came out to my parents.

I don't see how getting a sex change is any different than coming out to the people you are close with. In either version, people will look at you differently. Some people will be angry and hurt and betrayed. Some people will be proud and happy for you.

I know I hurt my parents by telling them that I am going to be who I really am and I'm done pretending to be someone that I am not. I have to live with that every day. Do you think I regret doing it though?

Not one bit.

Boring night in the pad

So Sydney and I are just sitting here. . . Watching drug addicts going to rehab, lol.
Now we are discussing these drugs. . . Like cocaine and heroin. It's scary stuff.
I couldn't imagine having a life style like that. So bizarre.

ANYWAY

Today was a good day. I was very productive at work. Got a couple nice big quotes out there.
One of them is going to go through. Cross your fingers on the second one.

I had to get on one of my co workers. She has been having problems with her NAM (Named Account Manager). They just don't mesh well. So I said to her "You can do two things. One: sit her and bitch about it. Or two: do something."
To make a long story short; she did something.

Sydney went to bed and I am going to go back to playing WoW.

Peace.

Chilly!

Oh and it is REALLY cold in my apartment.

We want to save money so we aren't turning the heat on.

Which is good but. . . it sucks!

Time to bundle up and go to bed.

Night!

A much needed update

Okay, I know I know. I epically fail at updating this blog.

Let see; moved into the apartment. I LOVE it.

Um, work is going great. It's busy and makes the days go by really fast.

I really like someone right now. He is basically amazing. A total catch. I'm kinda nervous at the same time. I don't feel I'm good enough, at times.

Hmm, I dyed my hair again. It's nice a dark. I am also growing a goatee. I am kinda of "iffy" about it. Sydney likes it and I am told that it makes me look older, which I guess is a good thing.

So, yesterday, I went out to my car and there was a note underneath my windshield wiper. I thought it was a ticket at first and I had a mini freak-out. It turns out it was a little message that said "Call me sometime cutie! -Dustin" and it had a number.

I was curious so I texted this guy and he is a total skank. All he wanted was to. . . you know.

I was like. . . Really?

Do people actually act like that?

It kind of irked me and made me think less of our generation.

The last week at home

OMG! Tomorrow night is the last night I'll be sleeping in my parents house! Hopefully :)
I am so stoked. I really should start packing but. . .meh.

I got 2 new tattoos done yesterday :D:D:D They are on my fore arms

The nautical stars have a bit of a history to their meaning. Early on sailors navigated by the stars at night and the north star became the symbol for finding ones way home. Once you know where the north star is you can point your ship in the right direction to get home. So the star became a symbol for finding ones way home or more symbolically even finding ones path in life.

I really connect with that meaning. I am in a point in my life where I am starting to live and make changes that will change my world around me. It can't hurt to have a guide or two to help me become the best person that I can.

The colors were kind of hard to pick out.

I chose green because the color green denotes balance, harmony, and growth. These are three things that I find everyone human being should strive for.

I chose blue for the other because the color blue signifies loyalty, confidence, and integrity. These are probably some of the most important aspects to have.

Time to go start packing!

My Sunday experience

I thought today was going to be a good day.

For the most part, it was divine. Sydney and I went shopping for cleaning stuff for out apartment. It was a blast. I've noticed that cleaning supplies are NOT cheap. We tried to get the cheap stuff and we mostly did. But, with 2 full bathrooms, I spent $94 on cleaning crap. $94!!!!!!

Anyways, aside from that, we raiding Sydney's fiance's storage unit. Got a bunch of kitchen stuff, a crap load of movies and on Saturday we are going to get his couches. They are so very very nice.

After we finished that little excursion, Sydney dropped me off to my house which had about 50 people in it. My parents invited all of our extended family for a big dinner this evening. It was nice catching up with some of my cousins that I haven't seen in almost a year, but when they start to gay bash, that's when I get pissed.

It started off fine. I thought there would be no talk about me. But when the family that I haven't seen in forever started to question why I hadn't gone on a mission, that's when things got ugly. I chose to leave the room when I saw my relatives whisper to each other.

I went out with Adam. We met up at the South Hill Mall. Walked around Target for like 15 minutes, where he probably got pink eye from touching everything. Then we went and saw Ghost Town. I was dieing. That movie was extremely hilarious.

So, it was a really great ending to a not so great day. Thanks Adam!

Over due update

August went by so fast.
Enough said.

Work has been going great. Getting some big accounts after this week. It will be stressful, hard, and I will have to be very meticulous. I can't wait!

Sydney and I are moving into our apartment, in Fife, on the 27th. I am super stoked! I cannot wait to get out of my parents house and on my own. I already have all these decoration ideas!

This weekend has been really fun. I hung out with my friend Adam. We went and saw Igor on Friday night, which was surprisingly really funny. On Saturday we hung out at borders, went to thai food, then over to his friends house to watch a couple movies. Overall, I had a blast.

I don't think I am going to make it to the fair this year :( I'm going to miss my scones. . .