The brighter side of things!

Garrett and I have worked things out. It has been the hardest thing that I have encountered in this life so far. It made me question my judgment of people, if I could ever trust my heart again, and why your brain could feel the opposite of your heart.

I know that we are going to be something great that other people will see and be envious of what we have. There are people like that already. It makes me feel great.

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New subject! My new tattoo that I will be getting.

This has been such a hard decision! I wanted many different designs but I needed something meaningful. So, I found one that I think fits all my wants.
So, basically, this is perfect.

The shape: It is in a sun type style. I love sun's so much because I was born in Arizona where it's always shining.

The lightning bolt: I have the nick name Sparky.

The yin and yang: You can't have the good with out the bad. Joy without the sorrow. The equal and opposing forces in my life.

I am getting it done next Monday. I will be sure to upload a picture or two!

A magnet for pain? Maybe?

So, I think I really am a magnet for heart break.

Garrett broke my heart again. He lost my trust.

I only gave him a 3 day period of me "not talking to him" but that wasn't enough.

It was one of those things where you can't stay mad at the person because you can tell they are sorry and it hurts you when they are sad.

But 3 days isn't enough. I am having second thoughts on everything that he says or that we plan to do. I WISH that I could just believe him, because I want too, but I still can't trust him.

I told him that I needed a timely break from him. So I can think things out. He thinks that I am trying to forget him.

Garrett, I could never forget you.

People are retarded

Major update!

So, Garrett, the guy that I thought I loved and thought he loved me. He lived in Colorado. . . Well it turns out he was playing not only me but 2 other guys too. He told us all that he was in Alabama for a 3 week training thing.

When he confronted him about him playing us, he told us that was being deployed for Iraq. So basically, he was trying to find a way out of his screw up. Lol, people are SO retarded. I'm glad he felt the need to break my heart.

Oh well. Just got to keep laughing, loving and living. . . But especially laugh at jack asses like Garrett.

So distracted!!

Sorry it's been a while since my last post! On Monday a new game called out called Age of Conan!

It's an online game where I can go around and basically kill everything and everyone. It's fun to decapitate people from behind their backs.

I am going to have to hold off on getting my tongue pierced! Sad day =(
The healing process would take like a week and I won't be able to do that while still work at the same time. So, I'll just have to wait till I can afford to take a week off work, haha.

In regards to my last post. . .

Everything worked out just fine! Turns out I was over reacting to a case of miscommunication :D :D :D

The weather these past couple days has been amazing! I had today off and it was payday AND it was 80 degrees out!! Bonus! The only downside was most of my paycheck went to bills ><

Turn planning on getting my tongue pierced just not till Wednesday, most likely :D

I am in love with a guy who lives in Colorado. . . It is amazing and yet I really hate it at the same time =(

Disgruntled/New Aspiration

So, I asked a certain someone a very serious question, at least, I thought it was pretty serious and I haven't gotten ANY kind of response or any form of attempting to communicate me in the past 24 hours.

WHAT DO I DO? I kind of want to text or call this person and ask them what the deal is. Or I could just wait it out and see what tomorrow brings. . . Ugh, it's very irritating!

My newest aspiration. . . DUN DUN DUN!! To get my tongue pierced =P

Oh Canada!!

Ok, so this past weekend was a FRIGGIN blast. My 2 very good girl friends, Dana and Amber, and I went on a road trip to the beautiful city of Vancouver! As seen below. . . I will just say that being of the legal drinking age is the best feeling ever! Now don't worry, I know my limits and we only spent a FEW hours in a jail cell those nights =P

I really think I could see myself living in Vancouver. I loved the city's atmosphere. It so alive and constantly moving. WAY different then ghetto Bonney Lake, Washington!

Dana and Amber and I have had many new experiences and memories to share and hopefully I can create more of those with my other friends!